Don’t push yourself to do something you don’t really want to do. I’m not saying you should quite right now, but if it’s not for you, it’s not for you. Not disappointing others should be lower on your list than your own happiness.

good advice, my friend!! that is what I am trying to figure out: is it for me. At first, I thought it was. I really enjoyed it for the first 3 weeks or so, but then, it’s starting to kinda drag me down. I hate that I feel this way. I wish it just clicked with me more. But I’m starting to realize that though I love the IDEA, the practicality of it for my personality, interests, and my whole life plan is just starting to fall through. I really don’t want to break the news to my coach though. I love that lady, and she is absolutely fantastic, so I really don’t want to tell her and the other girls! I just…gah…I feel burnt out and all sorts of WEIRD. Don’t like it a bit!!! D: that is why I am thinking of being a ref: I could still be involved in the sport in a safer way that I feel is more my speed! 

and agreed. The disappointment of others should NOT take precedence over my own happiness!!!